How can I believe in those words if I don’t even feel them?
“I love you”
“I love you” was the sweetest lie that a person can say, or you’re just used to saying that to me but not able to do anything for me to feel it.
“I miss you”
Do you only long for me when you need something from me, or do you genuinely miss me? Missing me was not one of your choices because when I’m with you, I cannot even feel your presence, and entertaining me when I’m with you is not even an option.
“I’ll make time for you”
But when? I always try to understand your busy days, but you also have your girl who’s longing for your presence and waiting for you to have a bond and make memories with you.
“I’ll always listen to you”
But where are you when I need someone to listen to me? Where are you when I need someone to motivate me or give me comfort?
“I’ll always try to understand you”
Is understanding only believing in yourself? I always explain how I feel about the things you did, but I never heard an apology. I only heard that I’m being so toxic, that I’m being insensitive, and I never tried to understand you.
“I will be your shoulder to cry on”
Then where are you whenever I’m crying? Where are you whenever I need a shoulder? Where are you?
“I will be with you in your ups and downs”
But whenever I have an achievement, I never hear you congratulate me or say that you’re proud of me. You said you’ll be with me, but whenever I’m down, you are nowhere to be found. You were never there when I needed you the most.
It’s important for me to see actions backing up words. When promises are consistently unfulfilled, it’s difficult for me to trust and believe in them.
